Chal Pada hu anhoni raah par, Ek honi ki chaah kar.
Anjaana hu is raah ka aaj ise mai jaana hu, Besahaara hu aaj mai ek sahaare ko dund tha hu, Bas chal pada hu is raah par, Uss aam zindagi se mod kar.
Niraash hu is zindagi se fir bhi jeene ki aas hai, Atal hai mere housale talne ki na baat hai, yu hi chal raha hu mai is raah par, Nayi zindagi ki talaash kar.
Andekhi is raah me meri manzil dekh tha hu, Ansuni us dard ko mere saason me aaj sun raha hu, Bad chale hai kadam is raah par, is dilke surk armano par.
Hmmm, I thought I will write weekly, but it seems I came after 2 months of my last Update.
So now I am here to tell something about my Vacation June 2009, 2nd week of June I had been to Bangalore for Error Boys community Inauguration function, Its a group made friends which will be working on Kannada song albums, Movies, My friend Santosh came up with this idea, so we some of friend have gathered to inaugurate in Santosh's Bangalore house, we have invited Kashinath (kannada Actor), Madan Patel(Music Director). Function went so good, I enjoyed with my old friends Sagar, Manjunath, Praveen, Santosh, Sindoor and Soumya. This is a 1st time I met Soumya in Bangalore, me Sagar Praveen we all are talking very close with Soumya and suddenly Santosh drop by and said buddy I never seen Sindoor such a silent before, I guess he is feeling uncomfertable becoz u guys are talking to Soumya too closly, then I realized that there is something in him and she. I met a gal named Apoorva, she is Santoshs friend, and good dancer, dont know how but we became very close to each other in a day. Now she is also one of my good friend. I met Bagya ( Iswar Nashte).Then after 5 days stay in Bangalore.
I came back to Gokak, by the next week only I had a plan to Pune with my NTTF mate Niranjan, me nad Ninja have been to Pune on 17th June night, and we stayed in Prashanth (Gidda) room, where Rahul(Pappya) and Madiwalayya(Mady) stays too, and on 18th night me and ninja went to Shiradi we reached at 19th morning at 4.30, we got freshed up and had darshan at 7. and at 9am we left Shiradi to Shanishinganapur I had taken pooja thali and Ninja just had darshana of Shanideva, we left Shanishiganapur to Pune at 12am and reached Pune at 4. Next day eve that is on 20th eve me, Pappya, Ninja, Mahesh, Ninja went to Lonawala, It was damn cold that day it was too much raining. We enjoyed Lonawala and left back to Pune at 8.30pm. on 21st morning Prashanth Arranged a car and me, Ninja, Pappya, Gidda been to Mahabaleshwar, 1st we visited Vayi Ganesha, and Panchagani, Mahabaleshwar, Pratap Gad, Balaji Tempal, had visited a such a nice places in a day. It was good trip, then next day that is on 22nd we been to Fashion street at 1.30, did some shopping and I left Pune to Nipani at 4. There in bus i met a gal, infact when she climed bus she was staring at me, I was totally confused why is she doing so, then after some time by her mobile she asked me my number I gave her then we started chatting, unfortunatly by 3rd msg Nipani came, the gal name is Sakshi she is from Udupi, she was going to Udupi. now she is in contact we became friends while travelling by strange way, how strange. and I was in my sis's house in Nipani for 2days and came back to Belgaum, and after 2day my dad mom sis all came to belgaum, I told my sis to stay next day all my sisters and Divya we been to Newyork Movie, and next day me and sis been to Gokak back. I stayed in gokak for 4days I got bored so I went to Belgaum back as I have my JAAN there. In all this I forgot to tell you I got broke up with Keerti on 25th when I was in Belgaum, even Aunt has told Keerti that we cant be together in future, I hope she took it as a mutual and mature break up. Now I always pray to god please keep that gal safe and take care of her. Now I am in Gokak enjoying with friends, have to go Manipal on 18th.
My first crush in my school days her name is Shridevi Hadimani she is pretty and very intelligent in studies, this is in 5th standard i used to share all my love feelings with my close childhood friend Atmaram Bhudikopp(TV), and ha same time i use to like Soumya Shetty too. Even TV was also in love with her, but I never use to talk to girls i was bit shy and scared type boy in schooldays. But when I came to high school I dont know from where i got the power,before my friends use to tease me becoz I use to be very silent guy, and in high school no one use to tease me at all, becoz in that time i was very short tempered if anybody irritates me I use to hit him.
In high school I have some good friends like, Satosh Bagalkot, Mallikarjun Tigadi, Sagar Patil. I was very close with Aruna Veerbarannavar, the only girl who is very close to me in my schooldays. After my 10th my friend santosh called soumya and proposed from myside, she replied " amar is my best friend, nothing much". then i thought there are still chances, but during 1st PUC she never use to talk to me, but all my friends use to call her Bhabhi, I use to see a smile on her face, still I dont know its ironic smile or what. after 1st PUC i got selected for NTTF dharwad. one fine day after a 2 years later I met soumya in bus and i went and talked to her, she said she has joined BSc Agreeculture in dharwad, I was very happy becoz she was also in dharwa. Then i use to meet her monthly. I thought there is chemistry going in between me and her, i knew that soumya is very selfish and boring type of gal, but i liked her multitalented skills like, dancing, singing, debate competations and good at studies too. After my NTTF got completed I joined a job in PUNE, I said all my feelings towards soumya with aruna, Aruna said me to wait for a fine day both will go and convence her, but one fine day that is 1st Nov 2006wednesday I went alone to soumys college and proposed her she said she have family problems, her mom wont agree for such love marraiges, but I tried to convence her for 3hrs, but she did not moved in, then I thought she do not have a single feeling of love towards me, so I left that day. This all happend on , my Bad luck day from birth.
From that day I was like mad I was already left the job and was doing Catia and Guitar classes in Belgaum, I then was acting like DEVDAS, I use to write shayaries and poems in love failure shock. Any way this is my 1st love, some one said in hindi" Kachhi kali kabhi todi nahi jaati, Pehali mohobbat kabhi bhooli nahi jaati". One never forget a 1st love.
But now I use to wish her on her b'day through ORKUT, now I found that all was affection nothing else. Now a days she is doing doing her MSc in microbiology in Bangalore, my frnds use to tell me, snatosh told me once she never had a feeling for u, but all use to tell me she does not suit ur family. any way past is past.This is all about my 1st love.
Its now 1:15am, today onwards i thought of updating my blog weekly twice atleast, today I turned 22, must tell my usual I use to get a more b'day bumps in my friends circle becoz I am the person to give them a damn bashes on their b'days, today every one were very happy to give bumps mostly anand and jitendra hit most.
I think each b'day is a new beginning, it is a new opportunity to overcome all the problems and forget what bad happened, its new day to conquer the dreams.
Now a days I am very much worried about my future becoz the recession period is going on and market conditions are very worts, and i am passing out from college in 2010, ya I am scared becoz I am in love with Keerthi and she will be always telling if her parents don't agree she will run to me, so I am scared becoz I don't have any source of earning. If i get a good job I will be the head of the game.
Now onwards every day i will work to make my dreams come true. *Jai Sai Ram*
